SOS I am dying, withering, whatever you call that. Why does history keep on repeating and repeating??
And I'm always that fool who notice it after everything had happened.
And what I left with is regret. Everytime. Why can't they just shut their mouth and go to hell? I can't bear to hear her voice again. It's intolerable. She is the minister of hell, not Richard. And why does everyone believe in her? Why does she have to keep on spreading those info. to those on the top? I just hate her doing that but she keeps on doing that and i am that fool to believe in her in the very first place. And it's not the first time she does that. Why everytime, everything has to play back and I am standing on the starting point again and making the same mistakes like I did in the last trial. I really want to kill her. I do. And why does she have to make judgement before knowing and analyzing everything? And then, with no evidence in hand, actually, but just her imagination and her prejudice, and she transform this into fact and tell others, and others believe in her. What kind of theory this is? What kind of person she is and how foolish those people who listen to her are! She think I am listening to that? No, I don't think so. I think she is trying to make me listen to her. And I don't want to be a puppet. I don't want to be anything! I just want to be myself. But I have never be myself. Sometimes I just admire those who like to cry whenever and wherever they are unhappy. And today, after those ashes piling up bit by bit, I feel like I am ready to explode in any minute. Yes, I admit it. I am not as strong and as happy and friendly as you think. I maybe smiling to you but behind I am cursing you. I am that witch. I am not good at taking stress so don't have hopes on me! So just keep your mouth shut. Or kill yourself. Either of them will make me feel better. And don't bump into me again. I don't want to see you anymore. It makes me feel nauseous. | 
